Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Cause it stole our hearts,

Dear you,

Life's been pretty good i guess. Im so glad i've been meeting 
up with everyone's thats important to me so much recently.
Most importantly, ive been meeting le bestie at least once a week!
I miss the mographers and school so much ): *Le sigh

Anywayz, i was just looking thru my folders and i just realised
how much you meant to me in the past.
I mean i was really surprised. Its weird cause i surprised myself
so much that i can't believe i used to feel this way. I can't
believe that was me a few months back, it was just few months back.

Thinking back about it, i really did put in so much effort 
into us and everything. And now, i don't even know what to feel.
This scares me so much cause' i can't believe i don't feel anything now.

Feeling a little vulnerable tonight, right now.
I cant even find the words to explain this. I don't feel sad.
I just can't believe this happened, its just too surreal.


I  really need to stop searching for something that doesn't exist

Thursday, October 4, 2012

I'm wishing i stayed,

















Hello earthlings! Greetings from my crib hehe *waves
I finally had some "alone" time for myself after busying all these weeks!
The photos above literally sumed up what i've been up to for the past
2weeks!

Its been long since im lying on bed like this with xiaob in my arms
blogging about life. heh mehhhh anyway, my bbygirl is gonna fly back
from korea tmr night! I honestly can't wait to meet her! It has only been
a week HAHA
Guess im too dependent on my bbygirl and girlfriends already, i really
should learn to get things done myself.

Work has been pretty much mundane, i always told myself i would
only wanna do things i love. But too bad, in this realistic earth, passion
always has to be chunked aside for money.
Sigh, this is not what i imagined my life to be after i graduated.
Pleaseeeeee give me some luck and good news! *pretty pleaseee cross fingers

I think i really need a new place, new people and of course a new
lifestyle and culture. I'm pretty sure im gonna miss my bbygirl and
favourite people here but i need a new life too ):
Im just wishing for goodluck but at the same time trying not to pin high hopes
on this.

This is really weird but i recently realised that i haven found what i've been
looking for. I realised that i always compromise for i dont know what reason, seriously.
From now on, im not gonna settle for anything less than i deserve. I'm gonna
keep reminding myself never to settle less than what i deserve. This sucks, but
i have to live with this mentality in case i do something crazy again.

Currently im so hooked onto calvin harris's song, #we'll be coming back.
Damn his voiceeeeee *hearts melt

Ok enough of ranting me gonna go update my ipod songzxz HEHE
BAIIIII!